3/22/2007
7:01 AM
Grr.. a while ago I cried non-stop because of one thing- I failed again to persuade my parents to let me go on a overnight beach trip in Laiya. My gosh, and I couldn't stop crying until my eyes became sore even up to now when I think of it.. I just don't get them.,they're so overprotective! While I do understand that they're just worried of me and that we're only about less than 6 and all teenagers, I just don't get that they seem not to trust me! I'm really doing my best all these years, and it didn't work! I don't disobey them or disappoint them, in fact, I've been following whatever they tell me! I've been exerting a lot of efforts in my studies, and I never fail them! I always do those things and one of the reasons is that I've been longing for them to give me full trust. Gaining their trust is one of my inspirations and motivations to do good. And not permitting me to go in one of these trips proves that they don't really trust me! They think I'm still a kid, dependent and can't handle situations. I still cry a lot now because of realizing all of these. I'm so sad because of this. I'm again, defeated, and sick of it! Honestly, sometimes I feel that I'll just give up and rebel. But come to think of it, it will only worsen. I'm really helpless now!! I'm suppressing all my feelings inside and just cry non-stop. I couldn't scream, cry out loud or throw tantrums like I used to because I'm no longer a kid! But I just can't handle this situation. When they gave me a firm NO, I just walked out and continued surfing until I cried. I don't know why I couldn't argue. I guess I'm just trained that way. And it's so not good. This feeling really sucks. Am I really an untrustworthy daughter???
I'm sorry but this is just the only way that I can let all my feelings out. But my chest is becoming painful... :(
<b>It's all about the attitude, baby!</b>
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3/22/2007
7:01 AM
Grr.. a while ago I cried non-stop because of one thing- I failed again to persuade my parents to let me go on a overnight beach trip in Laiya. My gosh, and I couldn't stop crying until my eyes became sore even up to now when I think of it.. I just don't get them.,they're so overprotective! While I do understand that they're just worried of me and that we're only about less than 6 and all teenagers, I just don't get that they seem not to trust me! I'm really doing my best all these years, and it didn't work! I don't disobey them or disappoint them, in fact, I've been following whatever they tell me! I've been exerting a lot of efforts in my studies, and I never fail them! I always do those things and one of the reasons is that I've been longing for them to give me full trust. Gaining their trust is one of my inspirations and motivations to do good. And not permitting me to go in one of these trips proves that they don't really trust me! They think I'm still a kid, dependent and can't handle situations. I still cry a lot now because of realizing all of these. I'm so sad because of this. I'm again, defeated, and sick of it! Honestly, sometimes I feel that I'll just give up and rebel. But come to think of it, it will only worsen. I'm really helpless now!! I'm suppressing all my feelings inside and just cry non-stop. I couldn't scream, cry out loud or throw tantrums like I used to because I'm no longer a kid! But I just can't handle this situation. When they gave me a firm NO, I just walked out and continued surfing until I cried. I don't know why I couldn't argue. I guess I'm just trained that way. And it's so not good. This feeling really sucks. Am I really an untrustworthy daughter???
I'm sorry but this is just the only way that I can let all my feelings out. But my chest is becoming painful... :(